A life little less complicated

For a year now, I have been in a beautiful relationship.
A relationship a lot different from the previous ones I had.

I have been in two relationships in the past that has not treated me exactly the right way, or should I say the way I think I deserved to be treated. Two psuedo-relationships that had been a difficult part of my life. Everytime I think about it again, it still hurts that I had to go through with the pain, the confusion and the pretension. It was hard to be the "2nd" girl, hard to be the girl they would never introduce to their parents, the girl not worthy of commitment. Those memories never fails to hurt me. Honestly, hurt is an understatement of what I felt back then.

During those days, I believed that I was unlovable, that I did not deserve commitment from any guy, that i was not enough for anyone to love. I was more convinced that it was my fate, when the 2nd guy came. I was on the brink of surrendering to the situation.. just to get him to love me.. I was consenting to be an OPTION:the 2nd girl.

Then a light of hope came to me. UNEXPECTED.
I was never looking for another guy, I wasnt even interested.
I guess God answered my prayers.
He gave me someone who can see a beautiful and deeper side of me.

He came. He was cute, i admit it.
He was MY TYPE.

Unfortunately, I was on the verge of accepting I was just good enough to be the 2nd girl.
So I didnt pay too much attention.
As i always say to him now, I WAS JUST BEING NICE TO HIM.

Good thing he still made his way to my heart. With his charming looks, his unbelievably cute smile, his dreams for his family and others, for the way he looked at me like I was the nicest thing on earth. He made me feel so loved, a feeling I have never felt before.

Though it seemed like a fairytale, our story was never smooth and calm.
Before we even became a couple, I had to confront someone from my past. I was confused. I didnt want to hurt anyone. I was willing to hurt myself rather than to hurt them. I thought it was the right thing to do, but guess what this guy told me that what i would do would still hurt three people. However noble or martyr what i was about to do seem like, it would inevitably hurt someone. He taught me to choose, to choose for what i know is best for me.. TO CHOOSE WHAT MY HEART TELLS ME..

I know my heart is a good and smart heart. So, i trusted my heart and the love he offers me.

For a year now, my life is STILL COMPLICATED. Still full of troubles, confusions and pains. Nothing has really changed much..

Nothing except that now i hold in my heart
the person God has sent me,
the person who loves me even at my ugliest,
the person who laughs at my mistakes and bloopers,
the person who can make my temper go sky high but still can make me laugh the hardest,
the person who inspires me to become better,
the person who looks at me lovingly everyday,
the person who appreciates my little nose, and my frail body,
the person who thinks im the hottest thing next to the sun,:)
the person who committed to me and promised me that i am his only love,
the person who has completed my life,

and that person has made every journey of my life a little less complicated.

That person is the love of my life, KEENE ANTOLM BENEDIQUE V. CALIPARA.

This may be too late to be an anniv gift but hey, everyday spent with you is a celebration. I hope you realize how great a person you are.:)

I LOVE YOU BEE!!!:)

03/31/09

Ang sakit ng puso ko…

oo. may ginawa akong mali, di ako nagpaalam nung binuksan ko ung email. I didn’t mean any harm talga nung binuksan ko ung email.

Ang pagkakamali lang siguro ndi na nga ako nagpaalam meron pa akong ginawang mali.. isang isyung matagal nang napagusapan, madameng beses nang napagawayn. Eh wala naman talga akong intension na masama.. gusto ko lang malaman nila kung anung mangyayare. Hindi para magimply ng kahit anu pa man..

Alam kong mali ang nagawa ko. I admit that! Nasasaktan lang talga ako dahil siguro sa alam ko na mali ang ginawa ko pero nagtangatangahan ako at nalimutan ang tama kong dapat gawin.

Alam ko mali, pero ung reaksyon at mga nasabe nya medyo masakit. Parang may kumurot sa damdamin ko na nagsabeng, “ikaw kasi masyado ka nang comfortable! Hindi lahat ng bagay porket kayo eh conjugal na.” Kahit ganu ko sabihin na ndi na ako mangingialam ng kahit na anong gamit nya, andun pa rin ung kirot ng katangahan. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang sakit na nararamdaman ng puso ko, parang gsto kong umiyak at sumigaw. Gusto kong magtago sa ilalim ng mesa kinalalagyan ko ngaun.. gusto kong iatras ang kamay ng oras par asana mas nakapagisip ako ng maayos at nakapagdesisyon ng mas mahinahon. Ndi maintinidihan ang nararamdaman ko, para akong nanghihina at unti unting nawawalang ng paningin. Ansaket pero alam ko na ang sakit na ito ay dulot ng sarili kong kagagawan. Madalas talga tanga ako.

Ang sakit ng PUSO ko…

Back to Basics 2009: Summer Workshop

We are a group of young professionals that will conduct a summer workshop on Arts, Crafts and Drama/Acting for 20 – 25 children ages 7 to 16.This activity aims to provide children with the opportunity to make their summer productive. The event will happen on March 28, 29, April 18, 19, May 2 and 3, 2009. A graduation with exhibit and production will happen on May 17, Saturday as a culminating activity. Participants will be asked to pay P180.00 for the handouts, materials and other expenses for the workshop.

Art Workshop by Gino Rosales
Drama/Acting by Keene Calipara
Crafts Workshop by Jhoanna Espiritu
Consultant: Ma. Hesusa C. Arceno

Making my summer productive

This year will be a different summer for me. My boyfriend, Keene, and I thought of offering art classes feor children this summer. Our objective was to earn a little money so we can sustain ourselves during the summertime.

Summer is always a happy time for me but it also meant that I don't have classes for a month, which means I dont get a SALARY!!! Yikes!! It means that i need to have another source of income to get me through the summer and of course pay off for my summer getaway.

So, ALAS! We thought of offering a summer workshop for children and offer arts, crafts and drama/acting. Both of us were really not the "artist" type, which means we know how to draw... A LITTLE. So we asked, how can we teach art of we cant even do it.

Then, Keene thought of his friend who is a real artist. PROBLEM SOLVED. Gino Rosales, instantly said yes to the idea. He will be the one teaching arts to the children. YEY!!! I will teach crafts while Keene will teach acting/drama. The plan was going smoothly.

Then a BIG QUESTION came: WHO WILL BE OUR PARTICIPANTS? WHO WILL BE OUR MARKET?

That was a really tough one...
Keene's idea was to invite the kids in the church where he used to volunteer. The only hindrance is that most of the kids are from a not-so-well-to-do family so asking for payment would be next to impossible.

Then the realization came. We lowered the price to P30.00 for 6 session including materials, handouts, and snacks. It was really a big risk for us knowing that we offer art and crafts workshop which needed lots of art materials.

Having no money is really a big predicament on our part as organizers. How can we successfully teach these kids if we lack the resources to do it?

We knew God will never fail us, we are surrounded by kind hearted people who shares the same vision with us. So we asked for donations in kind and in any amount possible. These people did not fail us as well. Thanks to their generosity we can push through with the workshop.

There may be alot of challenges along our way. On March 28, Saturday, the workshop will start. We are very eager and at the same time nervous about the outcome of the first day. The only thing that motivates us is the opportunity to share our talent, time and care for these children. We may not earn profit, but we will surely earn new skills, and especially FRIENDS.

On the Look for a SUMMER GETAWAY!

Every year me and my college barkada need (need is actually an understatement) to have a summer getaway. As a young professionals in our chosen fields, summer is always something we look forward to because it the time of the year where we unwind, relax and get away from all the stress in our lives.

SUMMER is THE ULTIMATE ESCAPE FROM REALITY. >> this for me is what summer means. its when i get to travel to another place, try on a new swimsuit, ride the airplane or the bus and just be my friends and LIVE THE GOOD LIFE. Being a young professional, unwinding gives me the fuel to go on with life and make me a "new person" everytime i go back to work.

So this is my ordeal, this summer we planned an out-of-the-country getaway. Ayi, my college superfriend has an employee rate in one of the hotels in Bali, Indonesia and we thought it was a good idea to grab that opportunity. We were all excited by the fact that we get to go out of the Philippines, but knew we had to battle one more problem and that is getting an airfare. We askd travel agents we knew and discovered that the airfare would cost us $500.00 Oh no! and that's still exclusive of terminal fee and local taxes. From then on we doubted the plan. However, there was a brink of hope when we heard that there is a travel expo happening in SM convention center. So, we went there and look for packages that can bring us to out destination. Sadly, different agencies quoted us with the same amount of airfare and it really disappointed us.

SO WHAT HAPPENED?

Well, we decided we had to change plans and stick to the Philippines first before travelling out of the country. We decided we'll try Caramoan city in Camarines Sur. This is where my search began.

I have seen pictures of Caramoan but i do not have a slight idea of where it was and how far it was. I did some research and found a very good site with all the works and tips for people who wants to travel to Caramoan City. I'll post the link here because it has been a really great help for me. I have not yet tested it but who knows i might be in Caramoan this summer.:)
Here is the link: http://members.virtualtourist.com/m/e1d28/15698e/9/.

The author was moymoydtraveler. He posted tips about the place like transportation, accomodations, places to visit and eat in Caramoan. As for a traveller like me, i found it really helpful and easy to read. So for those of you who wants to go to Caramoan, i recommend you this site.:)

BTW, thanks moymoy for the tips!:) I'll post my Caramoan adventure here if ever I'll be able to pull this off.:)

I also found this site http://caramoan-paradise.blogspot.com/2008/12/caramoan-adventure-cwc-wakeboarding.html.

The site is owned by Myra Roces and it offers group tour packages. The packages is really affordable plus the site is very user friendly and informative.:)

Thanks also myra, and im hoping to get in touch with you soon for our trip!!:)

What January 30 means!?!:)

What my birthday mean?

You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Although you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities.

On Love, You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.

My strengths:While outwardly witty and humorous, in reality they are rather serious, discreet and discerning.

My weakness:They make misjudgments and are sometimes proud and haughty.

Best job:Self-employed.

Most of the meanings are true for me. its really amazing that a simple application like that can actually state who you are as a person>:)

What's in a NAME?

My name is Jhoanna.

For some reason, I did not like my name when I was a little kid. I always thought it was very hard for some to pronounce and even remember. I also had an idea that people always forget my name becuase it was a three syllable word JHO-WA-NNA. it was kinda hard for some to remember names with three syllables and i wanted my name to be a two syllable word but it was not what i had. Some of my friends have shorter names, which means TWO SYLLABLE WORD.

This meant that they were always remembered by people and by those they dont even know. I did not like the feeling at all. At times i felt invisible and worst, i felt unlovable. Many would think that its just a name but for me it reflects how we are seen or remembered by people. If people do not remember your name it is the same with you as a person --forgotten.
As a teacher by profession, it has always been my policy that my students remember my name. This is due to the fact that students can really have some "good words" when describing their professors. So, for them to remember my name I sometimes include it in my exams.*wink* Although this is a good strategy for students to remember me, it is inevitable that some of them still forgets my name. Actually, i have been given different names already, some are funny some are really out of to his world.
i appreciate students who remember my name and it is also my goal to remember all their names inspite of the difficulty of matching faces and names. There is always a sense of fulfillment in my part when i remember their names even if they are already my former students. There is also the same feeling of fulfillment when my former students remember my name. It is a constant reminder that in some ways i might have really touched their lives. That in the journey of our lives we have seen and been part of that life.
I have always wanted my name to be remembered. Luckily, I got that from my profession and my students.
Now, I have learned to love the name that i have. I have also loved the person that owns that name.
**Speaking of names, here's what my name says about me.*(from www.blogthings.com)

Your name says that you are mostly:
Talented but unmotivated

Your name also says you are:
Independent but distant

Moral but jealous

Ambitious but stubborn

be comfortable with your own skin

**its been months since i wrote here. i have my reasons and some of it are because of work, no internet connection, no interesting topic to write.but really when i come to think of it, the only reason i dont usualy blog is because i am not confident in how i write and with my thoughts. When i get the courage to write, insecurities stop me from doing so because i am so afraid of judgments.

So, why am i writing now? simple: being comfortable with your own skin

what made me change my mind? let's just say true friends does things without having a single idea that they have done something significant in your life, and for that im thankful for my friends:)

me and three of my high school barkada were in a yahoo messenger conference. the conversation was the usual "kamustahan" and that "kamustahan" went into a more serious talk mostly about work, being yourself and being happy.

i wont go into details but the conversation made me realize that people differ, jobs differ and coping on life differs. there are certain people that cope through friends, laughter, going out and partying while some people tend to overthink things.

i am both. i sometimes feel that i need to go out and hang out with my friends when things dont go my way or when i feel stressed out. after a night out i feel good and ready to face the world again.

but there are times i overthink things. i think so much about what others may say about me,what's wrong with me and why do i have to be me.

coping with the stress of work and daily life is HARD. Nothing in this world is easy its just a MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE. sometimes work is not really the main problem of every stress we experience, sometimes the problem lies with us.

It is very important for a person to fully discover oneself. things that make you happy, sad, angry and crazy. your favorite things, colors you love, movies you want, books you die for.. things that no other person can discover but yourself. this for me is SELF LOVE. only you can love yourself the way you want to be loved and cared for, when you finally find this, love will come pouring in. that's the only time people surrounding you would also pour their love on you. you will exude an aura of joy and love and having friends and being loved will be effortless. being comfortable with one's skin is SELF LOVE. when you cannot love yourself no other person can do it for you. loving oneself is the first part of understading how love works, becuase if you cant love yourself how can you be sble to love others?

when you feel frustrated, depressed or unloved, stop and think again.. PEOPLE ACTUALLY LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE, YOU JUST DONT LOVE YOURSELF THAT MUCH.

being comfortable with one's own skin is really difficult, there will be times you'll doubt yourself of things you are capable of doing. insecurities will come crawling in on you and bad comments may make their way on your ears. but come to think of it its your own skin, who else will be comfortable with it?:P

My College Telltales Part 2

*continuation*
8. Baraha days sa UM

Tuwing umaga nun Filipino time nauso samen nila kc ung paglalaro ng black and white at kung anu anu pang sugal sa cards. Ndi na kame pumapasok nun para lang maglaro. Kasa kasama namen nun sila Eden, Jakie, atbp di ko na maalala. Si KC masyado naaliw kakaklaro, inaliw din siya ng teacher namen sa Filipino. ahahah PEACE MAN!!!!

9. R.I.P Ms Belma
Dahil sa inaliw si KC ng Filipino teacher namen. Ayun sinumpa niya kasama ni Yam na sana madeads na siya dahil binagsak sila. Ang Nangyare: MAY NASAGASAAN NG JEEP.Patay!

10. Hits sa Airport
May mga panahon noon nung college na wala na ata kameng ibang trip kundi ang humits. Minsan nang maagtripan namen, ndi kame pumasok sa class ni Nikki at KC para tumambay sa airport pagkatapos humits. Ang eksena:

KC: Game Ka Na BA?
Jojai: Game Na Ba Ako?
Nikki: (Tawa)

Sabay sabay: HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!

Ngaun ko lang narealize na nid naman nakakatawa ung pinagusapan namen, ewan ko kung bakit tawang tawa kame nun.

11. Hits sa POLIGOV
May mahaba kameng break nun bago kame magpoligov. So wala kameng magawa kundi maghits kaya ang nangyare pagpasok namen sa class wala kameng maintindihan. Ang malala pa dun asa front row kameng tatlo nila KC at Nikki. at slowmo kung kumilos nun si KC. why not?

12.Spanish Class
Sa instituto cervantes kame nagkaklase noon. May ilan mga memorable experiences ako noon at eto un:

Angelie: "Senora, Senora, el Bano!"
Roda: "Hijo de Puta" (ayun napalabas ni senora)
Nagmakarunny nose si senora, naglagay siya ng tissue sa loob ng ilong nya.
Nang may makatabe kame ni Nikki na mabahong classmate namen.
Nang lage kameng nagdadala ng mani sa class nila Nikki.
Naging teacher namen si Luis na may butas ang pants sa may puwet.
At nang kinanta ni Nikki ung alma mater nila nung highschool na may spanish pronunciation ang "foundation"

13. AKIC Elevator
Nasa 12th floor ata kame nun kakatapos lang ng klase. nagaantay kame nun sa elevator kasi ayaw namen mag hagdan.Parating na ung elevator, eto na bubukas na. TADA!!!!!!!! May isang matabang nakaPE na nakasideview na sa elevator. Di naman ako natatawa nun eh, kaso etong si KC biglang naghatak at sinabe: "Tara, hagdan nalang tau! Sino ba namang di matatawa dun.

hindi pa dun natapos ang ang bangungot namen sa lalakeng un. Naglalakad kame ni Kc sa may table tennis area nang may naspotan kameng matabang naksandal na natutulog laylay na ung ulo. At ndi kame nag kamali sya nga ulit. Laftrip!

14. MERALCO Adventure
kaya nga bang ndi adivsable na ndi magbayad ng kuryente on time. Bakit? Para maiwasan ang paghahabol sa office ng Meralco at pagkaputol ng kuryente. Pagdating namen sa cityland, ayun walang kuryente, so mega takbo kame sa may malate para habulin ung meralco office. Eh ndi namen alam kung san un so sumakay kame taxi at pagdating dun close shop na. So ang ending ng beauty ni Nikki? Black beauty. Wla siyang kuryente magdamag. AHAHHAHAHAHA!!:P

15. One on One Inuman
red horse times namen ni Niki sa pad nya sa cityland nun,nagmagkalasingan na kanya kanyang drama sa fone ang arte namen nun. Si Nikki nasa may balcony ako nasa may CR. ynot?

My college telltales:)

Tatlong taon na rin ang lumipas simula ng magtapos ako sa kolehiyo. Marami nang nagbago sa buhay pero may isang bagay na hanggang ngaun ay ndi pa nagbabago. Yun ay ang CSB, 3 taon akong naging estudyante ng paaralang un at ngaun bumibilang na ng pangalawang taon ko doon bilang guro. Kahit na maraming taon na ang lumipas napakasariwa pa din ng mga alaala ko ng mga kalokohan, laughtrip, sad tri, tsismis, awayan at kung ano ano pang trip nung college. Maraming mainstay sa buhay college ko at ilan sa mga ito ay hanggang ngaun kasama ko pa rin sa paglalakbay ko sa buhay. Sa tingin ko ito ang isa sa mga araw na nais kong alalahanin ang BUHAY College.

1. 1st day ng CSB life ko:
ORIENTATION:
Cast: KC Co, Rod Tan, Nicki Cabrera, Rachelle Ann Go

Orientation day noon, wala akong kilala nagkataon na nakatabi ko ang isang babaeng sobrang bibo na daldal ng daldal sa orientor namen, kung tama ang pagkakalala ko si Ate Kaye un. Una kong nakatabe ung babaeng un sabe ko grabe sa pagkahyper to lahat na ata kinakausap. Di naman naglaon nalaman ko din ang pangalan nya, (nakita ko kasing sinulat nya sa nametag) siya si KC Co, o Kathreeen Claire Co. Unang araw palang nang pagkakakilala namen eh hagalpak na agad ang tawa ko sakanya. kasi ba naman nagchichinese siya kasi katabe namen si Rachelle Ann Go (hindi siya ung singer kapangalan lang.) Dahil dun naging magkaibigan na kame. Sa tabe nya naman ay may isang neneng payat, na napag-alaman namen na Nicki ang pangalan, Nicolette Franchesca V. Cabrera sa totoong pangalan. Sa tabe naman nya ay si Rod Tan. Kame ung mga unang magkakausap nun nung orientation. For the record, akala nameng tatlo lalake ang ROD TAN. Pero nang tumawa na, aba, MOTHER PALA.:) peace.

Dun nagsimula na tuwing bago magklase eh nagkikita kita muna kame sa wendy's bago pumasok sa class.


2. Wendy's Meet up
Tulad ng sinabe ko un na nga nagkikita kita muna kame sa wendy's nun nila KC, Nicki, Rod, CJ at Carl (meron pang iba pero di ko na maalala kung sino sila heheh) para sabay sabay kame papasok. (grabe sooooo highschool). Ang blooper lang na naalala ko nun eh nung hinahanap namen ung Computer Lab, at ndi namen makita. grupo grupo pa kame nun kaya anjologs talaga.

3. Elevetaor Chase
Break ata nun may hinabol kame ni Nicki na lalake.. mula third floor hanggang fourth floor hanggang sumakay siya sa elevator, ang gwapo kasi.. turned out the guy was a girl.. MALIIIII!!!!:)

4. Madison
Isa sa popular tambayan ay ang dorm ni Nicki noon. Inom, addikan, tambayan, gawaan ng project o kung anuman. May isang beses na may inuman pero ndi naman talaga ako kasali nun na sobrang nagkalasingan na nalaglag daw sa hagdan si soky. heheh.

Meron din nang magtago si Faye sa likod ng aircon para humits...

Ang gorilla drama namen ni Soky, KC, at Nicki habang nanonood ng tennis sa Rizal. hanep overlooking kasi eh.

Ang dance showdown namen nila KC at Nicki sa mga nagtetennis pa din tuwing break time.

Nang muntikan nang manakawan si Nicki sa kama nya.. (alam mo na un Nicki!)

Nang mainis si nikki nang biglang nagdatingan ang L1W sa dorm nya ng walang pasabe.

5. Carl vs. CJ
*pasensya na sa dalawang sangkot. highlight kasi talaga ng college life ko to.

AESTHET time ng biglang may dalawang babaeng nagaway.
Ang drama: Si KC nanghamon na hawakan daw ni CJ ang tenga ni Carl kung matapang siya.
Bigla nalang sa likod namen....

Nagtulakan si Carl at CJ, nagsigawan... Si jammy syempre umawat, hinawakan si Carl sa braso at pinaupo *take note: Forced paupo un, in short walang nagawa si Carl kundi umupo*, isa pang highlight si Jiv, umupo at nanood while saying Grow Up!, kameng tatlo nila kc at nikki ni ndi sumubok mangawat, at ang pinakaHIGHLIGHT sa lahat, SI SIR AESTHET WALNG NAGAWA KUNDI MAGSABE NG GUYS!!!!:P

6. PE class
Nagmagsayaw kame nila Nicki, Kc at CJ ng I will survive para sa dance class. Kagulo lang kame nun.

7. Providence Tower
Past time namen noon nila KC at Nikki ang magpunta sa providence para magvideoke. Dun nauso ang pagkanta namen ng Lakas Tama ng parang walang bukas, dun ko nadiscover na alam ni Nikki ung Till death do us part ng White Lion, nang magkaroon ng kalove team si nikki with Chudie dahil sa kantang Another used to be, dun din nahasa ang acting skills namen ni KC nang magkunware kaming nagwawala at nagaaway sa loob ng videoke room at may nagcheck out sameng guard sa sobrang galing ng pagarte namen.

*to be continued*

My newest ADDICTION

I'm very fond of playing simple games in the internet. Before i always played SIMS, Diner dash and those other sort of games. Then came the latest and my newest addiction, thanks to my friend Lani who introduced me to this site.

y8.com is a site full of games ranging from easy to difficult ones. The games are in flash format so it downloads really fast and only has a short time to play. Although the games are for limited time only, some of the games are really fun and exciting. PLus the games are free, if you might get lucky there are games that are downloadable.:)

Here are some of my fave games:

1. Hotdog BushThis was the first game I ever played in y8.com. The plot of the game is that George Doubya Bush was kicked out of the White House so he ended up selling hotdogs instead. When playing you just need to serve the customers whatever they would like to have. It might sound so easy at first but wait till you get to the other levels. There are additional snacks, drinks and condiments to make the game a little more thrilling. There also another surprise there when you think you've finished everything.:)
Hot Dog Bush



Click here to play this game

2. Burger Tycoon

Couldnt find a picture for the game. But this is really one of the best games available in y8. The concept is that you have to manage a fast food business but the challenging part is that you need to also manage the cattle, the farm and even the heardquarters. The gane is like SIMS but in a different setting. Really fun and realistic. You'll learn so much about the fast food business by playing this game.
Burger Tycoon



Click here to play this game

3. Fever Frenzy

Fever frenzy is a doctor pretend game. You have to treat all patients in a given time. This game is under the mouse skills category. Really exciting and challenging.

Fever Frenzy



Click here to play this game

There are so many other games for your amusement just check out the site below and play your lives out.:)

www.y8.com

What is Chastity and How to remain Chaste?

This is an article forwarded to me by a Chastity educator. Its a good read. :)

What Is Chastity?
Chastity is sexual self-control. It means placing sexual intimacy within one relationship and one relationship only: marriage.
Although we've used the word “abstinence” in this book and have encouraged you to abstain from premarital sex, we actually prefer the term chastity when talking about sexual morality.

Abstinence is about what you cannot do (engage in sexual intimacy).
Chastity is about what you can do — lead a positive lifestyle that respects self and others. For centuries, chastity has been an admired moral virtue. Author Pat Driscoll defines chastity as “sexual goodness” — living out the truth, beauty, and goodness of human sexuality. In one of her pamphlets, “God's Plan for Sex,” Driscoll boldly states “Sex is great!” and then lists some reasons why it is:
God created sex, and it's wonderful.
God gave us operating instructions for sex (in the Bible).
Only the abuse of sex (through fornication, adultery, masturbation, etc.) is wrong.
Following God's law brings joy.

Disobeying God's law brings unhappiness and problems for ourselves and society.
God has given us many ways to express our sexuality genitally (in marriage) and non-genitally (outside of marriage).
2. Chastity applies to everybody, unmarried people and married people. How?

For unmarried people (both those planning to marry and those who intend to remain single), chastity means staying pure in thought and deed, refraining from sexual intercourse and other forms of deliberate genital arousal, and expressing one's sexuality in non-genital ways.

For married people, chastity means having sex only with your marriage partner. This form of promised faithfulness between husbands and wives — giving themselves sexually only to each other, never to anyone else — is also known as fidelity. Chastity in marriage also means keeping sex open to life. (We talk more about this in Chapter 17.)

Celibacy is a special form of chastity. People with a religious vocation — for example, priests, brothers, and nuns — take a vow of celibacy. As part of their deep commitment to God and sacrificial service to God's people, they promise to lead a life that excludes all forms of genital sexual intimacy.

ANO ANG DAPAT GAWIN KUNG TINATAMAD KANG MAGTRABAHO ?

======Nakuha ko lamang ito sa email na ipinadala saken ni Rachelle de Vera. CHAMPION!!!====
Sa buhay empleyado merong dalawang pagpipilian kung tinatamad kang magtrabaho.

A. Una ay umabsent.

1. Kapag umiikot na kaagad sa katawan mo ang katamaran pagkagising pa lang sa umaga ay mag-isip ka na kaagad ng palusot kung bakit ka aabsent. Paalala: dapat ay memoryado mo ang mga dahilang nagamit mo na dati (tip: gumawa ng isang logbook) ng sa gayon ay hindi ka parang sirang plakang nag-uulit lang lagi ng rason ng di pagpasok. Alalahanin na tuso din ang mga bossing.

2. Kapag nakaisip ka na ng magandang dahilan ay agad mag-text o tumawag sa bossing mo, the earlier the better. Kung ayaw mo ng madaming tanong e mag-text ka at kung nais mo namang tumawag ay siguraduhin mong magaling kang umarte kagaya ng kung ikaw ay kunwaring me sakit ay umubo ka ng paunti-unti habang kinakausap ang bossing mo.

3. Matapos mag-text/tumawag ay bumalik sa higaan at magplano ka na ng gusto mong gawin sa buong araw. Malaking posibilidad na magtutulog ka lang buong araw. Sya nga pala, kapag tumawag ang opisina sa kalagitnaan ng araw, laging tandaan ang rasong ginamit (consistent ka dapat), maaari namang i-off mo na lang ang phone mo para hindi ka maistorbo buong araw.

BABALA: Siguraduhing regular ka na sa kumpanyang pinagtratrabahuhan kung ikaw ay mag-aabsent.

B. Pangalawa ay pumasok

Eto ang dapat gawin ng mga empleyado kapag tinatamad magtrabaho pero ayaw umabsent. Ang mga taong ito ay nuknukan ng kapal ng mukha. Ang mga sumusunod na instructions ay napakasimple pero effective. Meron ding oras na nakatakda, magsisismula ng alas ocho ng umaga at magtatapos ng alas singko ng hapon.

1. Pumasok ng sakto sa oras. Huwag kang male-late at huwag ka din namang excited masyado. 8:00

2. Pagdating mo sa opisina ay ilapag mo lang kaagad ang gamit mo sa lamesa at magtungo kaagad sa pantry. Magtimpla ng kape o kung anuman ang iniinom mo pag umaga. Habang nasa loob ay makipag-usap sa mga tao doon, patagalin mo ang usapan (tip: pag-usapan ang mga headline ngayong araw o mga nangyari kahapon sa loob ng opisina). Kung walang tao sa pantry ay mag-yaya ka ng kasama bago pa man pumasok doon. 8:00-8:30

3. Matapos sa pantry ay magtungo na sa lamesa mo dala-dala pa din ang kape, ito ay para hindi ka antukin buong araw. Buksan ang computer. Matapos nito ay buksan ang mailbox mo. Basahin ang mga email...mapabago man o luma. Buksan lahat ng pedeng buksang attachments, makakabuti ito sa pagpapatagal ng oras. O kaya naman ay mag-email ka sa mga kakilala mong matagal mo ng di nakakamusta. Kapag di ka pa nakuntento ay gawing chat ang email (ito ay sa kadahilanang banned na ang halos lahat ng messengers sa mga kompanya...pati google talk di pinalagpas, mga hayop na IT yan). Pano? Mag-email ka sa kakilala mong alam mong merong access sa internet sa mga oras na yon tapos antayin ang reply...wholla! Instant chat session. Sya nga pala, habang ginagawa ang mga nasa taas ay huwag makakalimot inumin ang kape..lalamig ito. 8:30-9:30

4. Matapos ang makabuluhang paggamit ng computer ay magdala ng mga papel-papel at magtungo sa kung saan mo man nais. Mas maganda kung mukha kang aborido hawak ang mga props mo habang papaalis ng lamesa, ito ay para sabihin ng bossing mo sampu ng kasamahan mo sa trabaho na busy ka lagi. Magtungo sa ibang department na me kakilala at makipag-usap ng kung anu-ano. 9:30-10:00

5. Tignan mo nga naman. Alas dies na! Break time na ulit! Pagkatapos mag-lamyerda sa ibang department ay magtungo ulit sa puwesto at ibaba ang mga scratch paper na props. Dalhin ang tasa sa pantry at magtimpla ulit ng panibagong kape, libre ang kape kaya magtimpla ka lang ng magtimpla. Magtungo sa labas kung ikaw ay nag-yoyosi kung di naman ay manatili sa pantry at makipag-usap ka na lang sa mga tao doon. 10:00-10:15

6. Pagkatapos ng break ay bumalik sa lamesa at humarap sa computer (huwag ng magdala ng kape sa lamesa...tama na ang nainom mo, sisikmurain ka na sa sobrang gahaman). Tapos ka na sa mga emails mo, ngayon naman ay mag-internet ka na lang ng kung anik-anik. Pero bago mag-internet ay magbukas ka muna ng office document kahit wala kang balak gawin ang mga ito, makakatulong ang documentong ito mamya. Tapos ay mag-internet ka na. Paalala: dapat ay alerto ka sa mga tao sa paligid mo, kapag alam mong me padating pindutin ang ALT at TAB ng sabay. Ito ay para makapunta sa office document na binuksan mo kanina. Kung mabagal ang iyong reflexes ay dapat mabilis ka sa paggamit ng mouse para ma-click mo agad sa taskbar ung documentong nasabi. Kapag na-master mo na ang technique na ito ay di na mapapansin ng bossing mo na nag-iinternet ka lang sa mga oras na ito. 10:15-12:00

7. Tama na muna ang computer. Lunch break na! Alam mo na ang dapat gawin. 12:00-1:00

8. Pagkatapos kumain ay gawin ulit ang #5. Habang gingawa ito ay maglabas ulit ng mga scratch papers na para bang me hinahanap. Tandaan na dapat seryoso ang mukha mo habang gingawa ang mga ito (tip: ikunot ang noo para makakuha ng mukhang seryoso). 1:00-3:00

9. Break time na ulit. Ang bilis nga naman ng oras. Hala..punta na ulit sa pantry. Maaari ka na ulit mag-kape at makipag-chikahan. 3:00-3:15

10. Bumalik sa lamesa at guluhin ito sa pamamagitan ng paglabas ng sandamakmak na mga papel. Tapos ay gawin ulit ang #5. Tignan ang oras sa computer mo. Kung 4:30 na ay simulan mo ng ayusin ang ginulong lamesa. Mag-ayos ayos ka na din ng sarili. Kung kasing kapal ng adobe ang mukha mo ay magtungo ka ulit sa pantry para mag-kape (tandaan na dapat me kasama sa pantry) o kaya naman ay gawin ang #3. Matapos ang lahat ng ito ay umuwi ka na, para mo ng awa...wala ka na ngang silbi ay nangdadamay ka pa ng iba sa katamaran mo. 3:15-5:00

buhay college

August 9, 2007
Ang mga sumusunod na pangyayari ay halaw sa totoong kaganapan. Ang mga pangalan ng nasangkot ay hindi pinalitan upang maging mas makatotohanan.

Jammy: Buzz
Jhoanna: oi jammy. kamusta?
Jammy: steady lang.. kelan tayo sesession ulit..
Jhoanna: sa party ni Kaycee malapit na.. punta tayo ha
Jammy: aug14 ba?
Jhoanna: hindi sa 18 sabado un..
Jammy: grabe nakakamiss na college
Jhoanna: oo nga, nakakapagod magtrabaho noh
Jhoanna: tara college ulit tayo
Jammy: college ulit o buhy colege
Jhoanna: ay buhay college pala
Jammy: friday?
Jammy: 1515?
Jhoanna: ngaun nalang.
Jhoanna: haha
Jammy: san sa taft?
Jhoanna: cge text ako ng iba
Jhoanna: pwede daw si soky
Jhoanna: kela soky nalang tayo
Jhoanna; tara na ano?
Jammy: anong tym?
Jhoanna: ngaun na punta na ko
Jammy: teka naman.. easy
Jhoanna: yan ka na naman tapos ba backout ka ha
Jammy: hindi cge. mga 8pm pako makakarating
Jhoanna: ocge text text


*****so 9pm nagsimula ang inuman sa garden nila soky kasama ng generoso, 2 1.5 coke, 3 oishing maanghang, isang chippy, 3 cloudnine at marlboro lights ni soky. Nagbuhay college kame, reminisce ng mga kalokohan sa klase, mga boylet at girlets, ammerrrka days, chismis at COD days.. at lahat lahat na.. sinamahan kame ng alak para magbalik kolehiyo. Isa to sa mga pinakspontaneous na nagawa namen, mejo madale na kausap basta alak ang usapan...***


**** ang bago lang, wala nang sumusuka, nagsisigawan, tulog at nagbabasag sa inuman na un. Meron na ding usapang insurance, columbarium, sexual harrassment at kung ready na ba sa kasal kasal. Syempre di maiiwasan ang usapang trabho kung san kame pupulutin pagkatpos ng ilang taon.***

***Matagal tagal ko din na ndi nakita si jammy at soky pero masasabe kong wala paring nagbago. Kame pa rin ung dating Jojai, Jammy at Soky. MAy bago mang mga boylets at girlets, may bago mang trabaho o wala, bagong mga kaibigan, bagong karanasan, bagong mundo, bagong kame, may babalikan kameng mundo kung san pwede namen makita ulit kung ano at sino kame noon.. Hinanap namen ang isang parte ng buhay namen na matagal tagal na rin nawala.. ang buhay college. Ngunit dahil dito napatunayan kong kahit kelan ay kaya namen ibalik ang buhay na un, anumang oras basta kame ang magkakasama... (grabe ang keso neto) at syempre kung buhay college lang din ang paguuspan syempre may kasamang usapang bote yan:)****

.:IKEEPLOVEREAL:.

You are invited to join the "IKEEPLOVEREAL" Competition in preparation for the Second International Congress on Education in Love, Sex and Life that will happen on the 19th to 23rd of November 2007. The competition is composed of two categories which are the Song Writing and Video Documentary also entitled "IKEEPLOVEREAL" The competition series is being held to increase awareness on the importance of education of the young in character and chastity, exemplified by the personal example of parents and other educators.

For further details and mechanics visit the website at www.edicongress.com.

love, laughter and life ever after....

Please support the
Second International Congress
on Education in Love, Sex and Life
Manila, Philippines
EDSA Shangri-La Hotel
19 to 22 November 2007

the one that got away

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

Source: The Manila Times

By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little nice ties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it'snot yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact

........... Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come.

Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"

That's what the one that got away is, the biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it.Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens... Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different.


What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away." You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

sighs..

why do girls fall into bait and end up hanging on..for nothing.

.:this sucks:.

sigh

Why do guys pursue other girls,
when they already have a relationship to worry about?!!!

The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe

***This maybe the time of the month where I question myself and the things that have been happening with me -- this can be the so called self-assessment(wtf?!)***


So who am I this month or should I say for the past few months...


The LION

When you syllabicate the word it would spell as LI-ON. Which is a homonym of "La Un" in tagalog...

In (layman's) or should I consider Jhoanna's terms, its the Little Miss Past Time..

For the past months I feel for so many times being a part time person..

Part time secretary...
Part time teacher...
Part time SO...
Part time bestfriend...
Part time sister..
Part time teacher..
Part time everything..

In most cases, I consent the situation.
I consent people to make me a part time person in their lives...
I willingly let them take a part of my life and leave me hanging without any warning signs..

Yes, its unfair! But really,in many ways I make this SHIT happen..So right now i am a LION...


The WITCH

Witch . a person, now esp. a woman, who professes or is supposed to practice magic, esp. black magic or the black art; sorceress. Cf. warlock. (Retrieved from http://www.infoplease.com/dictionary/witch)

I have been a WITCH for quite some time, but definitely not the literal meaning of it. I don't have magic or any supernatural power and Im not an old woman. (haha!)


I feel like a Witch because I have been talking shitty and tactless to some people...

I know I offended people with my comments and somehow I dont apologize for it. Aside from that, I do things that I should not have done especially that I am the one in authority in that situation. This is so witchy! haha!

and lastly,

The WARDROBE


From the words of Gee Bravo, "I am a teacher in DISGUISE".

I pretend to be someone I am not..

Everytime I finish a class I get frustrated and in a way useless..
I'm still weighing if this is the right path for me or if Im just doing all this for money and lack of job that would accept me..

On the contrary, everytime Im in class and with my students, I feel I have so much to share and to learn from them.
I love my students.. present and former students..
I love my co-teachers and the people I work with...
I love the subject and its objective...

So why do I feel like this everytime..
Well, I also dont know..



This is who I am for the past months. Right now, I need answers which I am pretty sure wouldnt be answered..


Still, after all this.. All's good:)